boring! I’ve been up maybe 30 minutes and I’m already bored. It’s humid and rainy today so I don’t think we’ll be going anywhere like I had originally planned. We didn’t do anything yesterday either due to the same situation. Down pours and ridiculously humid weather doesn’t really appeal to me.
So anyway, yeah. Bored! I’m just sitting here thinking about what I need to be done, listening to the tv and overhearing something about “equestrian apparel” (I wish I had a horse to need that sort of product, but sadly not right now) and after I get that finished I’ll flip over to one of my favorite coupon-ing sites and make a plan for the week if there are any good deals to be had. I have been kicking serious coupon ass lately! I saved around $80 last week between Target and the commissary. I love that. I love looking at my pantry and hygienic hoard knowing that I haven’t paid for probably half of it. Sweet!
We celebrated Aub’s 5th birthday early this week due to actually having family here to celebrate it with! So much fun. 
My Grandpa hasn’t been on a road trip in almost exactly 10 years! I haven’t seen him in almost 5 years so it was good to have the chance to see him AND Grandma again. I’m always afraid this time will be the last. That’s the way my morbid, generally paranoid mind seems to work.
Oh and aside from Grandparents and fun, I love birthdays. Oh yeah! I can’t even express how much I love birthday cake. lol Obviously way more than anyone else here because I seem to have consumed the majority of it. Bring on the fat burner pills!
My rear end will need them after this week. Aubree didn’t eat any of it and I was shocked. Apparently she is not a fan of the whipped frosting from Walmart’s bakery. She said it tasted “nasty”. Oh well. More for me!
Thank goodness the cake is now gone and so is everyone else. I love company but it stresses me out. I get anxious and worry constantly about whether or not they are having a good time. *sighs* Keeping senior citizens entertained is hard for me so I turned on CNN and let Grandpa have at it much of the time. So bad, I know. Now I need a few naps to get myself back to normal again. Or somewhat close to normal anyway.
Yesterday was nothing but stress and work. No “Mother’s Day” when you’re on your own I suppose. I got lots of “Happy Mother’s Day” greetings but no behavior to match. lol Everything was torn up, no one wanted to listen to Mom and no one really cared that I didn’t want to spend my entire day knee deep in plastic toys. I am looking forward to getting a nice break when the hubby comes home tomorrow though. He’s always such a help. If I didn’t have him home at least once in a while I would need more than the best wrinkle cream to keep me looking my age. I would be a hot mess. I swear. He’s awesome and he helps me with so much lately! It’s been a very long time since I have found myself being able to say that he’s genuinely an awesome person but HE IS. We had so many rough patches (like a million times worse than sand paper on your corneas) but we’re finally in a place where everything feels right. All is well with the world I suppose.
Sometimes, or most of the time, I wish my brain was upgradable. Much like computer memory. I’ve been to the store I don’t know how many times this week for a few items, all have been forgotten. The kids want this or that or I’m distracted by someone trying to jump out of the cart .. and it all goes out of my head.
Today I tried to make bread in my bread machine only to come back to a ball. A rock hard ball of dough. 
Guess who forgot the yeast?? I was so upset. I had been waiting that 3 hrs for wonderful, fresh bread. I had planned on making it my guilty dinner. Just bread and butter! But no go. I wasn’t about to try again and wait another 3 hrs so I ordered from Pizza Hut instead. I’d still rather have the bread though.
I feel like I’m losing my mind some days!! At least the hubby is coming home tomorrow to “visit”. I think he’s only home a couple of weeks before he’s off again so I won’t dare get used to his presence. But I will hopefully get a nap in at some point and maybe scoop up a little bit of my brain from the floor before I lose any more of it. IF that is even possible.
Like I’ve said before, I’ve let Facebook and Twitter take over my brain when it comes to being online. I have so many of my bloggy friends on Facebook as well as family that I don’t feel like I need to blog. But I do. I know I do. I do this mainly for myself. I can still go back to old archives (not online but on my computer) from when I was pregnant with Aubree. I can read about her first kicks, baby showers, diaper cakes, labor, etc. It’s so neat to have that. I also have a ton from even before that. Way before I really had anything to blog about. And yet I somehow had so much more to say back then. lol
Today was frustrating, obviously you can tell that from the post below. I had a huge run around at the military clinic here and just about went postal. But you know, I can’t. I always feel like I have to keep any of my actual thoughts inside because I don’t want my husband getting into trouble for my bad behavior. heh That is SO hard for me because I am a tell it like it is girl. If I think you’re doing a rotten job, I’ll tell ya! So many people deserved that today but I kept my mouth shut. I waited until I got back to my van and then I just screamed as loud as I could for a good quarter mile. I don’t think the kids appreciated it but it kept me out of trouble. 
I do think in the end I got it all taken care of. I should have everything I need in order to register Aub for school. FOR SCHOOL! Someone please tell me that the 8lb baby I birthed almost 5 years ago is not going to leave me for Kindergarten in the fall. I went to the school this afternoon to grab the folder full of info/paperwork and I almost wanted to cry. I know it’s dumb and I should be excited for her but I’m really not. Not yet. The thought especially tugged at my heart when Will piped up today and told me that we couldn’t let her go to school … “We’ll miss her too much!” he said. She wasn’t excited either until she actually saw the school and now I think she’s more into the idea. They have dolphins painted all over the interior with an underwater scene that she loved.
I love that little girl so much. I know that’s pretty much expected but I DO. She’s dramatic, emotional, freaks out about the most ridiculous things. She gets angry easily and has a mouth like her mommy at times but I can’t get enough of her. It’s like her heart is just too big for her age. There’s so many emotions wanting to come out at once. She’s just amazing.
Bring on the brownies (and a side of the best diet pills) because I’ve had it. lol
I’m just at the point where I want to crawl back under the covers and forget that I’m responsible for two other people .. and everything else on the planet. I want to be one of those military wives that can handle it all with grace and poise but at times I’d like to lay on the floor and throw a big ass fit. Forget the poise! Forget the grace .. give me those damn brownies, a glass of wine and .. yeah, I’d like husband home right now, too. Let him deal with the run around that I’ve had today. *sighs*
